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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Photographic evidence, take two!

Proof that I do eat lunch! Or, you know, that I at least fix something for lunch. The eating of such plates often take an hour or two.


December 18, 2007


And this is my beloved feline. I'm not sure if he was looking to snitch a bite or if he was approving/disapproving of my choices. He's a cat. Sometimes it's hard to tell.

December 18, 2007 (b)


And for the record, the dip is in a measuring cup because I was out of custard dishes, which is what I usually use. All the custard dishes are in the dishwasher (or sink) from where I used them in the baking prep this morning. Also, I rarely ever finish my dip. It'll be a miracle if I manage to finish half of it.


Photographic evidence

This is what an engine mount bolt looks like when it shears off.

December 17, 2007


December 17, 2007 (b)



And what happens when the bolt is sheared off? Why, the engine drops!

Luckily, there are (I hope) two other bolts still holding my engine in place so when it dropped it didn't hit the ground. Needless to say, this needs immediate attention. Unfortunately, my emergency fund is pretty wiped out from other recent events. With any luck A. can do this work himself... if he can get the other half of that bolt out of the hole...

So, for the time being, I'm housebound. Pretty much sucks with holiday errands still looming over me but I won't drive the car. Instinct (along with the information I dug up on the internet about broken engine mount bolts) tells me that driving the car in its current condition is BADBADBAD, despite A. telling me it can be driven as long as we baby it.

A. is hoping to manage a half day today so that he can get under the car before it gets dark. I'm not sure how much he'll be able to accomplish without the use of my grnadfather's tools and blocks, but with my grandfather in the woods (seriously, the man is pushing 90 and he's gone hunting again) there's no alternative but to try. Well, I suppose we could take it to a mechanic somewhere but without ready funds I'm extremely hesitant. Besides, there's this whole big lack of trust when it comes to mechanics.

So I guess today I bake, clean, and wrap presents. At least until A. gets home. Then there's a chance that I'll be playing grease-monkey assistant.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Menu - December 16 - 22


Hey. Early posting of the menu. Yay.

Actually, the menu got done because I'm pretty much couch-bound due to some Ny-Quil knocking me flat on my big fat behind. Now I remember why I don't take that stuff. Seriously.

Because I'm still fairly stoned out of my mind from the dose of Ny-Quil I took last night, I've got nothing to say beyond that I'm ready to go back to sleep now.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.




Sunday
lunch: leftovers
dinner: shepherd's pie

Monday
lunch: raw veggies, fruit, cheese, crackers
dinner: pot roast, mashed potatoes, peas

Tuesday
lunch: raw veggies, fruit, cheese, crackers
dinner: salmon/tilipia, broccoli, corn

Wednesday
lunch: raw veggies, fruit, cheese, crackers
dinner: chicken, cous cous, green peas

Thursday
lunch: raw veggies, fruit, cheese, crackers
dinner: ???

Friday
lunch: raw veggies, fruit, cheese, crackers
dinner: turkey, dressing/mashed potatoes, random veggies, salad

Saturday
lunch: leftover turkey
dinner: ???


Have a great week, world.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Menu - December 9 - 15


Running a little later than I wanted to be with this entry, but here it is.

Last week was... crazy busy. This week is going to be just as crazy but maybe not quite so busy.

A. is on his way to Washington D.C. right now. He'll be gone until Friday afternoon. He made sure we had a tree before he left, and he and K. put the lights on last night. He also got most of the holiday decorations down (so I don't kill myself trying to get them myself) before he left. K. and I will finish decorating the tree tonight and tomorrow night.

I think we're keeping the decorating to a minimum this year, but I'm not sure yet. How I feel will play a large part in how much decorating gets done. I'd rather not decorate as much and use what little energy I have playing with my family than decorate a la Martha Stewart and not have any energy or time left for my family. But the decorations are out of the closet and if I happen to find an extra bit of energy surging through my aching limbs, you can bet I'll spend half an hour or so fussing with putting out/up decorations. The same goes with the baking. I have my master baking list and I'm getting to it a little bit at a time between now and the end of the year... and not fussing over what doesn't get cooked.

So! With A. out of town for the week, K. and I are having a rather vegetarian/munchies sort of week of meals. I'm hoping it will help boost my energy a bit (not to mention my metabolism) as well as help offset some of the sweets and heavier meals coming in the last two weeks of the year. I know it won't completely balance the scales, but the lighter meals this week should help get me (and my stomach) in the mood to eat less of the heavy and super sweet foods I'll not only be encountering but also baking after the 15th.

I'm not listing the extra baking or cooking that I have tentatively planned for this week because I'm not certain that I'll feel up to it. With the cooking for the meals so light this week I should be ok to do some of the extras but I'm not going to bank on it.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.




Sunday
lunch: Wendy's (out shopping)
dinner: leftovers, mac & cheese

Monday
lunch: grapes, cheese, crackers
dinner: leftovers, tuna, chips

Tuesday
lunch: raw veggie plate, fruit
dinner: boca meat, mashed potatoes, random veggies

Wednesday
lunch: ??? (shopping with Mom)
dinner: leftovers, salad (pizza hoagies?)

Thursday
lunch: raw veggie plate, fruit
dinner: lima beans, corn, random veggies (and pizza hoagies if K. is still hungry)

Friday
lunch: raw veggie plate, fruit
dinner: salmon & tilapia, broccoli, corn

Saturday
lunch: ???
dinner: shepherd's pie


Monday, December 3, 2007

Menu - December 2 - 8, 2007


So... yeah, it's been a while. Life is still working on getting back to normal, or at least, my version of normal. It's taking some very detailed lists on my part, but slowly I'm getting back into the swing of things. I do need to work on getting to bed before 2 or 3am again, but I'm getting there.

I think the majority of my holiday gift shopping is done. I've got a lot of list making and revising to do to be sure, and then the wrapping begins. There's also the baking list to be seen to. I need to double check ingredients and make that shopping list... then I need to plan out a baking schedule. The next few weeks should be busy.

Having been awake until just after 5am this morning, I slept until just before noon and am... a bit... behind. My day is... off. Oddly, I doubt I'll have any trouble at all sleeping tonight... assuming I ever stop moving long enough to lie down and close my eyes, that is. Still, I need to get moving so that I try to catch up on some of the cleaning.

So, the purpose of this post. Food! And I've added lunches into my menu so that I don't have to think about what to eat while I'm so busy but still manage to actually eat. (I'm bad about skipping meals when I'm alone.)

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
lunch: Wendy's (out shopping with Mom)
dinner: pot roast, leftover veggies

Monday
lunch: raw veggie plate (broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, dip) and grapes
dinner: fish (breaded cod for them & salmon for me), lima beans, baked potatoes, salad

Tuesday
lunch: raw veggie plate, grapes, cheese, crackers
dinner: chicken salad

Wednesday
lunch: ??? (shopping with Mom)
dinner: pork chops, corn, unknown peas (from mom), salad

Thursday
lunch: raw veggie plate, grapes, cheese
dinner: beans, rice, salad

Friday
lunch: cheese sandwich, chips
dinner: ground beef, leftover beans, tortillas, salad

Saturday
lunch: ???
dinner: pot roast, salad, broccoli, corn


Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I am still alive.

Ok, so, it's been a while. You think the lack of updating has been bad, you should see my mailbox. I've not managed to actually READ anything in months. At most I could sit in the chair and delete mail I knew I'd never read once I started reading my mail again (sales and other such "junk" that doesn't quite fall into the "spam" sector).

That should be changing now that my husband has bought me a shiny little laptop all of my very own. It somehow seemed easier for him to open a Best Buy credit card and charge what he did for this thing than it was for him to spend 1/4 of the amount on a decent chair and have to rearrange the living room again. The logic went something like "we could get the chair, but you'll still want a laptop and I'll end up buying both in the long run anyway. This way we'll have the Best Buy credit already established for appliance buying later when we need it and when we get a house we can buy furniture we like, not just settle for something because it's cheap now". Or something like that.

Then, lo, then there was a laptop in my hands and wee! I am a happy girl.

So. Catching up.

K.'s birthday went well. We had fun. There was mommy-made cake and home-made pizza and there were lots of presents. She made out like a bandit and was happy.

I kicked off November by having something that wanted to be the plague. After many hours of sleeping, I started feeling human again. I made the mistake, however, of thinking I was "fine" and started pushing myself to get things done again. It didn't last long. I've been on a roller coaster ever since. Right now I'm in a low spot, with a sore throat and violently swinging body temperatures. And I've not been sleeping again. Wee.

My birthday!! SURPRISE!!! I GOT A PARTY!!! It was a week early (he wanted my it to overshadow Thanksgiving, not the other way around) but there was cake (that I didn't order or bake or even know about!!) and food (ditto) and presents (that I didn't know about, let alone purchased and wrapped!). I was a happy girl. My mom scored me some of the writer's reference books I'd been hogging from the public library (you know it's time to buy the book when you've checked it out 13 times in the past 6 months), my brother got me a season of Airwolf on DVD, A. got me the entire Robin of Sherwood series on DVD, K. got me (with her own money, no less) on DVD, and K. and A. got me the original Highlander movie on DVD. This past weekend A. brought in the mail and there was a card from his dad for me. He sent me money with instructions to go buy me something for myself. He even underlined "yourself". Part of me wants to go buy a Christmas tree, part of me wants to put it towards this lap top, part of me wants to stash it in my savings account (4.5% interest! WOOHOO!!) and part of me wants to go to Bath & Body Works and the closest book store for a little retail therapy. For now, the money sits on my dresser in the card. I'll figure out what to do with it once my head clears.

Thanksgiving. It was... different. Instead of everyone in the family going to my grandparents', Mom and I shared cooking duties and had a buffet-style lunch over at her place while one of my aunts hosted dinner at her house. We hung out at Mom's all day while my grandparents went (were taken?) to a city an hour or so away to my aunt's. I still haven't heard from my grandparents. I've called a few times but no one answers the phone and I've stopped leaving messages because no one returns them.

Update on the apartment. The bathtub faucet still leaks, but at least it's a faucet and not a pipe. The bathroom no longer leaks and it drains now, too. There are still a lot of little minor things, but I'm not up to having them here to fix them, especially while I'm gearing up for Christmas.

The house hunting has been going slow. Molasses in winter slow. It's the time of year when the market is always slow, though. The real-estate agent that's been showing us houses... I don't think she understands us or our desires and/or needs. Yes, I still want to see houses, but don't send me emails telling me you hope I feel better indicating that you know I'm sick, then a few days later send me an email wishing me a blessed Thanksgiving and in that same email get all passive-aggressive with the need for reassurance. Truly. I'm not up to dealing with it at this time of year when I'm also sick. Also, I'm not looking at ANY house on a holiday weekend. Especially Thanksgiving or Christmas or New Year's. Or Easter. Or Valentine's Day. Or Mother's Day or Father's Day. Those are off limits, as are birthday weekends. So, yes, send information on houses and when there's one that I want to visit, I'll let you know. But I'm not going to look at houses in an area of town I don't want to live in. There's no point. And by the way, learn my daughter's name.

And I guess that's about it for today. Or at least, for now. I'm still trying to recover from Thanksgiving and get my apartment back in order and have a lot of chores to catch up on, and it's getting close to that time when I start pulling boxes out of the closet to decorate. Decorating is going to be a challenge this year because our "Christmas tree corner" now has my desk in it and I don't know where I'm going to put the tree. I'll... think of something. Probably after a nap.


Monday, October 15, 2007

Menu - week of October 14, 2007


Oops. I completely forgot to post last week's menu. I blame it on stress.

My grandfather has been incredibly ill recently. It's not a huge shock because he's 89 years old and has been sick for a number of years, but it was still a deep blow to see him looking so fragile last time I visited. He's been taken to various doctors, been poked at a bit, had some blood pumped back into him, and he has another appointment on November 2. What happens now is up to him and God, and I'm having a hard time suppressing the selfish feelings welling up inside me. I accepted long ago that death is part of the life cycle, but this is my grandfather -- the single most important male influence of my childhood and the man that I still measure all other men against. It's selfish of me to say/think/feel that I don't want him to die, and yet I don't. This world -- my world -- will not be the same once he's gone.

Things are slowly improving in regards to the apartment issues. And I do mean slowly. The biggie -- the bare pipe in the bathtub -- has been covered. Finally. That doesn't mean the bathroom is complete yet, just that I no longer have a big ugly bare pipe sticking out of the tub where the faucet should be. And there are other issues that need tending to, issues that were created by the workers while they were, but the complex has a(nother) new maintenance supervisor so I have hope that things will gradually get better. Even so, we're still looking for a house, it's just not as urgent now.

Speaking of houses, we're looking for a house. We even have a "preliminary commitment letter" with a dollar figure on it. Woo-hoo! Now to find the house we want and convince someone to sell it to us for less than that dollar amount. That's going to be the hard part. The market here is... expensive doesn't seem adequate enough, but it'll do. We could probably qualify for much more than what we asked for, but we asked for $xxx,000.00 because it will keep our monthly payments where we want them, even with all the taxes and other stuff added in. And that's important to us because we don't want to move into a house only to loose it a year or so down the way because we can no longer afford it. Luckily, we have A.'s eligibility for a VA Loan to help us out, and we're first time home buyers so that should give us some help, too. Still, the hard part isn't all that financial stuff, it's finding the house we want, where we want it, for what we're willing to pay.

K.'s birthday is the end of this month (October 25, to be precise) and we were planning on doing a family dinner out that weekend but, again, my cousin's wife has scheduled their boys' combined birthday party for that weekend. Their boys birth dates fall near the beginning and near the end of November. That's right. NOVEMBER. So they have their birthday party at the end of October. (Yeah, it boggles the mind. Right there with ya.) This is the second year in a row that they've done this and last night it had K. really upset. (She eventually cried herself to sleep, after snorting snot all over my shirt. Don't ask.) We hadn't formalized any plans for the dinner yet because things have been happening and getting early commitments from my family is like getting candy from a bear -- it's doable, but often tricky work involving much pain. (A.'s family is even worse.) It's bad enough it's almost impossible to collect enough of her friends to do a party because of Halloween, but now that her cousins' (actually second cousins?) birthday parties are being planned in such a way as to, basically, make the family chose between being here for her birthday and driving an hour or so away for their combined party... yeah, see, I'm not feeling a whole lot of familial love right now and it's got her in a wicked twist. I do plan on declining the party invitation should it be extended to us again this year. I'll probably bite part of my tongue off in the process of being polite about it, too because it's not like they don't know when her birthday is. She gets a card from them almost every year.

I'm gearing up for NaNoWriMo in November. November is always an insane month for me because of the onset of the holidays, and now that I'm heaping the task of a 50,000 word story on top of all my usual November craziness...? Yeah. I'll be a babbling, drooling idiot come December.

And if you squint your eyes and tilt your head, that brings us to the menu. Yeah, it's a stretch of the imagination how I connect the dots, sometimes. It's best if you just smile and nod. Or so the husband says.

So... food!

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
dinner: pasta

Monday
dinner: breaded cod, corn, broccoli

Tuesday
dinner: sheppard's pie

Wednesday
dinner: pot roast, mixed veggies

Thursday
dinner: chicken, couscous, leftover veggies (or lima beans)

Friday
dinner: pizza

Saturday
dinner: taco meat (and/or leftovers) on tortillas


You know, I really should start planning lunches again, even though K. is in school and it's just me home for lunch now. Maybe next week.


Monday, October 1, 2007

Menu - Week of September 30, 2007


No blahblahblahing about the apartment today.

A. returned Thursday night rather than Friday night, and while I was considering letting him walk home so that I didn't miss CSI that wasn't really an issue since his plane was delayed for two hours. He arrived just after 11pm. It was 130am before we got back from the airport and fell into bed.

The weekend was... interesting. Saturday morning we met up with one of K.'s friends from school, bopped around the Museum of Science and Industry with her, then headed out to do grocery shopping after the girl was drug off by her family.

Sunday morning found us picking her up and taking her with us to see The Game Plan. Cute movie, by the way, especially if you have kids. After the movie and kid drop off, there was more grocery shopping.

All in all, it was a busybusybusy weekend... largely with an extra child.

This week won't be so busy. A. is driving to a city some two hours northeast of us everyday (he rented a car for the week). He's getting up at 3am so that he can leave here between 430 and 5am to be there on time. He'll be getting home... when he gets home.

This gives me the unique opportunity to be up woken up just before he leaves and have quiet time until 7am when K. has to get up for school. This gives me a jump on the not only the chores, but also the writing. If I can have my chores done by 745am when I take her to the bus stop, then when I get back I have the rest of the day to focus on writing and doing research. I don't know what time we'll all be wanting to fall into bed, but it should prove to be an interesting week. Just not too terribly busy.

So. Menu. Because my family really does like it when I feed them. And so do the little dinosaurs living in my tummy.

And there will probably be some additional "extra cooking" items added later, as whims occur. I guess it'll just depend on which way the wind is blowing.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
dinner: Chinese/take out

Monday
lunch: leftovers
dinner: pasta, salad
extra cooking: sauce

Tuesday
lunch: leftovers, fruit
dinner: Autumn chicken and apples, mashed potatoes, lima beans, salad

Wednesday
lunch: grilled cheese sandwich, fruit
dinner: make it up out of the pantry and freezer as I go, salad

Thursday
lunch: sandwich, fruit
dinner: parmesan crusted tilapia, macaroni & cheese, green peas, salad

Friday
lunch:
dinner: tortillas, taco meat, salad
extra cooking tortillas

Saturday
lunch: ??
dinner: homemade pizza



Thursday, September 27, 2007

Playing catch up

I'm feeling... better. I've had a killer headache and been all sorts of cranky and irritable since I got up yesterday morning, but I'm keeping food in my stomach. I count this as making progress.

Well, no, not since I got up yesterday morning. Since one of the cabinet guys knocked on my door at 850am then started moving my refrigerator and oven around because he had to "fix" stuff. Again.

Ok, so honestly I may have been a bit on the irritable side before then (like, days before) but I'm going to stick with blaming the cabinet guy. It's more satisfying than admitting that I'm just strung out and overly tired from being sick and stuff.

And no, nothing is really... fixed. Not really. Yes, there is some sort of base wrap around the bottom of the cabinets, but K. and I could have done a better job on our own. The gashes in the door frame were covered with a completely different shade of white paint. The range hood is now anchored by more screws, but it's crooked enough that when the maintenance supervisor was here yesterday he noticed it. The pipe in the bathroom is still... there. And so on and so forth.

Anyway... I'm tired of all my entries being about the mess it's become at the hands of the "professionals" that were forced upon us to make... improvements... that, for some reason unknown to us, couldn't wait until the middle of 2008 when we plan on moving.

But I do appreciate more than words can adequately express the emails and comments of support and reassurance that this too shall pass. And you're right. Eventually this ordeal will be over. Thank you for your concern and caring.

So! Onward. Upward.

A. is coming home early. A day early, but early nonetheless. The plane he'll be on lands tonight at 920pm (edt)... which means I'll miss the season premiere of CSI. I'm considering making him walk home. (Not really. Sort of.) Next week he'll be working in another city, but he'll be expensing a car and driving back and forth every day. We consider this a good thing. He'll be home for dinner (if we have dinner a bit later than usual) and I'll still have my car in case of an emergency or in case I just want to get out of this apartment. (Stop laughing! It happens... once in a while...)

K. is... well, she's doing well in school as far as I know. She's got a couple of friends she's wanting to drag with us to the zoo's Halloween thing this year, as well as wanting to go other places with them. It's got me a little twitchy 'cause of the money, but A. pointed out that she's been doing very well in school, been doing (most of) her chores without having to be coerced, and she's generally a good kid that deserves a chance to hang out with her friends... something that's not always been possible in the past. I agree. It's just... weird... for me, though I am glad to see her wanting to socialize. And maybe I'm seeing dollar signs where normally I wouldn't because the whole apartment ordeal has impacted me the most (with me being here 24/7) and has me spinning off-balance.

Also, K.'s birthday is fast approaching and I'm not sure what we want to do this year. She said she really didn't want to try and have another party that no one could attend because of the Halloween conflict, so we're thinking about a dinner. Last year we surprised her with a family dinner/party. She, A., and I were out running errands and decided to have dinner out because it was "getting late", she picked the restaurant, and SURPRISE!! there was a cake and balloons and presents and family waiting for us! She was completely surprised. I don't think I'll be able to pull that off again this year; the kid learns.

And me? I'm contemplating participating in NaNoWriMo this year. Yes, I've gone insane. I think it's from thinking about the upcoming holidays and the money I would normally spend during the last quarter of the year... and then thinking about how that money would be better spent if we put it towards some of the expenses that come with buying a house. And the thought that, for the first time in more than 20 years, I probably won't have a christmas tree. I know in my heart I will have one, even if I have to get a small fake table-top tree like I did one year when K. was tiny and we were broke. It didn't bother me then so much because she was entirely too young to notice or care, but she's much older now. Besides, I like having my home filled with the scent of the tree and it makes me smile to have one set up.

Speaking of the holidays...

Laura Williams is having a little giveaway in her blog for a Christmas Planner made by Marcia Francois. It's a dandy "13 pages of organizational wonderment that will get your rear in gear for the upcoming holiday season" according to Laura, and should be quite helpful.

Also, over at Overwhelmed with Joy! there's the 2nd Annual Holiday Cooking, Blogger Style Recipe Exchange coming up. Instructions and Mr. Linky go up on October 5, 2007, and from what I've read there were a lot of great recipes passed around last year and should be well worth the look.

And glancing over at everyone's favorite Organizing Junkie I find a few links for planning Christmas. Also, I see that she's gearing up to do another Organizing Challenge. Specific details are still under consideration last time I checked, but keep an eye on her. She'll announce it soon enough.

There's really not much else to say today. I'm itching to do some crafts, but almost all of my supplies are boxed up and stored away, and I don't want to spend the money to buy anything for a new project. I'm devouring what books are left on the bookshelves and clearing them out. I should be researching or plotting or something for any of the writing projects I have in progress or lurking about the edges of my brain, but I'm not and I'm at a loss as to why I can't bring myself to do so. Maybe I just need to leave this apartment for a while. Go out and walk around the mall or the park. Or something. Anything...

Monday, September 24, 2007

Menu - Week of Sept 23, 2007


Don't have much to say, really.

The bathtub still has that pipe sticking out of it.

The cabinet guys came back and... sort of... fixed some of the issues they created in the kitchen, but not very well. I'm still trying to scrape all the adhesive gunk off my kitchen floor, not to mention all the dirt and mess they glued to it.

And now my bathroom sink is leaking. Badly. To the tune that it's basically just draining into the cabinet under it. Yeah, my bread bowl is under those pipes, and there's a call going in to the office as soon as K. and I are clothed this morning.

I feel like chilled death puke. I've not been feeling well the past few days, but it seems to have fully developed sometime between last night and this morning. Normally I'd just crash for a few days, but with A. out of town (he left yesterday evening) I'm on my own with K. and the felines... and crashing just isn't an option. I'll rest as much as possible today, suck down lots of water and either apple juice or white grape juice, and try not to throw up on the new bathroom floor.

Feeling like I do and with A. out of town, the menu for this week is simplicity at its best... meaning that K. could fix most of what's on the menu this week with very little assistance from me. Not that I'll make her, mind you, just that if I get worse she can still feed herself.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.



Sunday
dinner: leftover tacos

Monday
dinner: Boca patties, mashed potatoes, lima beans

Tuesday
dinner: Breaded cod, macaroni & cheese, green peas

Wednesday
dinner: Chicken (or tuna) salad, fruit

Thursday
dinner: Baked potatoes stuffed with spiced ground beef, broccoli

Friday
dinner: ??

Saturday
dinner: Pot roast



Thursday, September 20, 2007

Update on Life


I'm having a hard time getting motivated today. Possibly because everything is just... chaotic. Everything is a mess, there's still stuff all over my dining room table where we were just too drained to put it all away last night, because there's stuff covering the dining room table (and chairs) there's no place for me to eat or sit down and write out my to do list and thoughts I have while I nurse a cup of tea like I usually do every morning, and on and on and on.

I have managed to get a few things done this morning. The FlyLady talks all the time about how anyone can do anything for 15 minutes. I haven't had to use my timer like she recommends in quite a while but I've fallen back on that hard this morning. I work for 15 minutes, then I lose it for 15 minutes. Or maybe that should be "I lose it for 15 minutes then pull myself together and get some work done for 15 minutes because the FlyLady says anyone can do anything for 15 minutes and I can hold it together for 15 solid minutes". Either way, there it is.

So, let's see if I can clear some of this stuff out of my head so I can stop falling apart every other 15 minutes and maybe actually accomplish something today... if it's nothing more than rewriting a chapter.

Just to be clear, all these pictures were taken yesterday. These are not old pictures. The color is off in some of these, but not that off.

So, this is that pipe in my bathtub that I keep talking about. This morning, it still looks like this.
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These next few pictures were taken sometime between 10.30 and 11.30am yesterday while the cabinet guys were... missing. I don't know where they were, they just left and were gone for just over an hour. I'm assuming they went to go get the power tools and stuff they had when they got back.

This is my water heater. Normally, one cannot see it because it lives in the corner under/behind cabinets. There's no pan or anything under it. It sits on raw concrete and is not accessible in any way unless you take out the kitchen cabinets... which is fun when it springs a leak or needs to be cleaned or worked on or something. Take note of the undamaged door frame. Just to the left of the doorknob. That's going to be important shortly.
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The... old... cabinets. On my front "lawn".
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These next pictures were taken... later. They came back just before noon (I thought it was 1130, but checking my cell phone log I realize it was 1146am when A. called me to find out what I wanted from Subway since I couldn't fix myself lunch with the kitchen as it was and they showed back up about 10 minutes later) and worked until about 4.30pm. Then left. My kitchen was... a mess, and that's putting it not only politely but mildly.

The new cabinets don't... quite... fit into the space of the old cabinets. Also, I might add, the cabinet there over the sink is taller than the old one was, therefore, they jammed it into the space and mounted it directly atop the light fixture thus ensuring that they not only broke the fixture but that the cover -- or rather, a new cover since they also broke the old one -- will not fit over the light bulb again. There's nothing quite like having a bare fluorescent light bulb shining just above eye level every time you stand in front of the sink.
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This is the lovely space where the spacer board between the dishwasher and the wall... stops. Four inches short of the floor. It's just... a hole. Hopefully I can keep the cats from shoving their paws in there. And keep whatever might be in there...in.
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And my floor...
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And, for some reason, they took the plate off this outlet. It was there when I took the first round of pictures while they were missing, so sometime after they got back it vanished. We don't know why. Or where it went. But as of this morning, it's still just like this.
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I can't get a picture of it because it... sort of... looks ok, just a little... crooked... which is why I noticed it, but when they remounted the range hood they only bothered to do so with the two front screws. They just... jammed... the back into place. It's sort of sitting at an angle where the back is trying hard to fall.

There are a lot of other little things -- like the adhesive all over my floor and the unbraced sink and the drip under the sink that I can't find the source of and the seriously messed up dead space in the corner (not blind space that's hard to reach but DEAD space, as in, they BLOCKED OFF that corner so that it's completely unusable) where I used to keep all my rarely used cooking utensils (like the waffle maker, little food processor, certain mixing bowls only used at the holidays, etc.) -- but nothing I could really capture with a photograph.

They left my apartment a mess, but before they left they stacked all the crap in front of my apartment all nice and neat. Glancing out the window this morning at a little after 11am (edt), yup, it's still there. Only now it's soggy because it rained quite a bit last night.
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Oh, and remember I said to take note of the undamaged door frame earlier? This is what it looked like when they left.
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I suppose, though, that I should be grateful. They were supposed to do three units in this complex yesterday. The maintenance guy that came by after A. turned in my typed list of complaints said that the people in the other two units got home and called the office. Their cabinets were sitting in their dining rooms. I'm soooo thankful I told the manager that I wanted to be the first apartment of the day. I can't begin to imagine how pissed A. would have been (not to mention how pissed I would have been) if they'd not gotten to us at all yesterday and everything that was in the kitchen had to sit under and on the dining room table while we ate fast food again.

My mom told me that at least it's better than before, and I'm not so sure I agree (sorry Mom). Before, it was one cabinet under the sink that was completely rotted out and unusable. No one saw it and as long as I kept the cabinet doors blocked the cats stayed out of it and it was ignored. Now, everything is theoretically usable (I'm still not sure I trust that hood over my oven or the light over my sink and I've not run the dishwasher yet) but the entire kitchen looks like something out of the ghetto. Except for the pretty new white cabinets and dusky rose colored counter tops.

Sure, a reasonable landlord would see to fixing these complaints and fixing the damage that was done by the work crew they hired. I think under different circumstances these items would be taken care of to our satisfaction within 48 hours. But circumstances aren't different. I honestly think they're overwhelmed and trying to take care of too many issues at once. I don't think they're being able to devote any real attention to things that come up, especially emergencies, but at the same time they're trying to make improvements, possibly to keep the current tenants happy, and not being able to do any of the jobs RIGHT.

Why do I think that? Today at 930am marked the official time that it's been three full weeks from the day my bathroom was gutted (it was gutted the morning of August 30, 2007 between 830 and 930am) and my bathtub STILL looks like it does in the above picture. Three weeks of having a pipe sticking out of my tub wall. They say it takes 21 days for a habit to form. I'm not sure what bothers me most at this point, that I still have a pipe sticking out of my bathtub wall or the fact that we're getting used to it.

In other news... well, there's not much else.

K. is doing well at school. She and her father have some big science fair meeting to go to tonight (A. told me I could stay home and cook dinner instead). The official progress report she brought home yesterday has her pulling in A's in Honors Reading, Social Studies/Geography, and Honors Math. She's pulling in a B in Honors Science. For some reason she's pulling a C in Honors Language Arts. It seems to be grammar related but it was hard to tell with the information on the sheet that went back to school today. All her teachers seem to think she's a delightful child and her conduct grades are all "satisfactory".

A. is doing work stuff. He has some travel plans soon, but they're slipping my mind at the moment.

And me? A. let me borrow his lap top the other night and set it up for me in the bedroom. I sat on the bed and wrote without distraction while A. and K. watched tv and/or played x-box in the living room. I... accomplished... something, and it felt good. Last night I accomplished nothing. A. set me up in the bedroom again and I dozed more than I typed. After the previous night's accomplishment, last night was a huge blow that I'm feeling especially hard this morning. Except for the other night, I haven't written in over a month. With no crafts to do (supplies are in boxes somewhere, probably in storage again) writing is my only creative outlet... and not being able to write is tearing me apart, especially this past week as I'm just starting to hear some of my characters again (they all went missing for a while). I'm tired. And I'm frustrated. But I need to push on through the day, so I guess I'll close this, set my timer again, and get on with it.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Menu - week of September 9, 2007


First, before I forget because I'm noticing some scatterbrainness (is that even a word??) creeping up on me today, I want to express my deep gratitude for the encouraging and supportive words and virtual hugs that came via email and those left in comments. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

To answer the question everyone seemed to have: No, there's really not anything more than a convenience store that's close enough for me to walk to. Even if there were, I'm not sure that I would because that would mean leaving said strangers in my apartment alone with my felines (and everything else), even though my felines would be shut up in my bedroom. Reflecting on how much inconsideration said strangers showed for my electric bill (kept leaving the front door open and all the lights they passed on -- even if they were leaving for several hours), my water bill (left the water hose outside running several times when they left for the night), my carpet and rug (mud, dirt, and water tracked everywhere), the bath towel that was in the bathroom sopping up the water from the leaking bathroom sink (they ruined it by wiping all sorts of putty, sealants, primer, and who knows what else on it), the job they were supposed to be doing (stopping to watch parts of whatever movie I was watching on days I had the tv on, peering hard at stuff on the desk and table, just... giving me the impression that they were being nosy about what we had here and not liking the fact that I had the bedroom doors shut when possible), and my family in general, I'm not sure that I trust them in my home without me or A. being here.

I wish I could say it's all better now, but I can't. The bathroom STILL isn't finished. The kitchen has been measured and awaits the arrival of cabinet fairy, at which point my kitchen will be gutted and become unusable for... who knows how long. If anyone feels particularly inclined, I think we'd all deeply appreciate any prayers that we (1) acquire financing, (2) find the house we want, and (3) can swing what it will cost to get us moved out of here and into said house.

I feel flu-ish. A. says it's probably stress-related. He could be right. (I'm still having nightmares and with him gearing up to leave town in a few weeks, I just KNOW that they're going to hit us with the kitchen ordeal during that time.) It could also be PMS. Or I could actually be getting sick. Either way, I just want to sleep right now.

K. seems to be adapting well to middle school. Progress reports that came home Friday indicate that she's pulling in an A in both Honors Math and Honors Science. Hopefully the chaos of losing the kitchen in coming weeks won't last too long or be too much of a strain on her. I know those 8 days of bathroom chaos were wreaking havoc with both her morning routine and her homework time (real hard to concentrate on homework with strange men running all over the apartment making all sorts of distracting noises and smells).

Menu, menu, menu. I woke up this morning still needing to make a menu and just felt... uncreative... about it. I started to make one and ended up crying in frustration. Last week's menu was thrown out the window several nights because of maintenance men being here until 8-830pm and I refuse to cook when they're spraying or grinding or filing stuff that's then being blown all over the place by the AC. I'd rather not feed my family sheet rock dust, thank you very much. So. Menu. Yeah. Simple. Basic. Boring. Maybe someday I can stretch my cooking muscles again, but for now it's time to rest them and just focus on getting through this. And if we have to get take out because the kitchen is unusable for any reason at all (I'm a bit anal about the condition of the area where I cook), then so be it. Right?

Sigh. Yeah, I'm not convincing myself either. And it's killing me to have to be getting take out so many nights a week and knowing that it's not over yet when we've worked so very hard to STOP eating take out and fast food, even on the weekends.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
dinner: leftovers

Monday
dinner: pasta, salad

Tuesday
dinner: breaded cod, herb-roasted potatoes, broccoli

Wednesday
dinner: rice with chicken, broccoli, peas, salad

Thursday
dinner: ??? - possibly leftovers

Friday
dinner: rice, beans, hoe cakes, salad

Saturday
dinner: ??? - possibly leftovers



Thursday, September 6, 2007

Thus beings Day Eight...

I'm just so very tired of not having a fully functional and safe bathroom, and now they've started in on my kitchen.

This is what they've left my kitchen looking like... keeping in mind that they were just going to leave huge gaping holes between and under the doors until I threw a fit about it being completely unacceptable because of the cats.

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I can't handle much more of this. I can't exercise with them here because they're back and forth all over my living room. I can't write because I'm in their way when I sit at the computer. I'm not eating or drinking much because I'm afraid to use the bathroom when they're not here (if it's usable) because they just walk in without knocking or I have to wait until A. gets home with the car so I can go to some store or another to pee or wait until they've decided to stop working on our bathroom for the day which often isn't until somewhere between 6pm and 8pm.

I'm so very tired, so very drained, so very... on the verge of losing it.

I think I'll reread the book of Job today then lock myself in my bedroom with the felines and take a nap.



Monday, September 3, 2007

Menu - week of September 2, 2007


Yeah, so, this is Day Five of not having a fully functional bathroom. It's truly getting old. The guy is supposed to be back today to finish "his" part and rip up the floor (why?? WHY??) and tomorrow (Tuesday) morning when (if) the complex manager comes to work he'll let her know that she needs to have the floor people come out and put a new floor down. The contractors are supposed to be back on Tuesday too (yeah, right) at which time the toilet will be taken out and put a new wall behind it. Based on their last, um, adventure, for lack of a more polite word, here I'm not expecting to have a toilet for several days... which really sucks because this is a one bathroom apartment.

Sigh.

Yeah. My head hurts. The panic attacks have subsided some, and I've found that I can hold them further at bay by locking (literally LOCKING) myself in my bedroom with the felines when these strange (less than trustworthy-looking) men are romping around in my apartment.

Truly, I'm over this game. We'll be looking for a house soon. A. has had me pulling whatever paperwork we might need when we go talk to the credit union about a mortgage. The only thing that might enable us to get into a house quicker than we had planned is his eligibility for a VA loan and the fact that we're first time buyers. Or... he is. I'm not sure I actually qualify because years and years and years ago I was the co-signer on my mom's house. Still, since he's the only one bringing in an income (I refuse to say he's the only one "working" because I bust my butt "working" as a stay-at-home mom), my status may not matter. We'll see though.

So. Menu. I made one for this week (mostly because the lack of structure they've been creating in my home was starting to push me into a very bad place and I desperately needed my structure back), though things may change drastically depending on how often and how late the workers will be here every day this week. (Yes, I fully expect this "simple job" to last until the end of the week and last week they were here until 8pm on a few days and it's damned hard to cook when they're filling the apartment with noxious fumes or I'm locked up in the illusion of safety that is my bedroom.)

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
dinner: spiced citrus chicken & rice, garlic carrots (recipe to come), mini cheese biscuits

Monday
dinner: chopped beef stroganoff, egg noodles, lima beans, salad

Tuesday
dinner: rice, beans, hoe cakes, salad

Wednesday
dinner: parmesan crusted tilapia, rice, peas, salad

Thursday
dinner: pasta, salad, parker house rolls

Friday
dinner: orange-glazed pork tenderloins, quick baked potatoes, various green veggies, salad, parker house rolls

Saturday
dinner: pot roast (without the potatoes), broccoli, corn, herb-roasted potatoes, parker house rolls




Monday, August 27, 2007

Downshifting out of crisis mode now. It'll take a few days for me to decompress completely and remember how to breathe. We're going to call the next few days a "vacation from thinking" and pick life back up on the first of September. Unless I get bored with the whole not thinking thing before then, of course.


Monday, August 13, 2007

Menu - week of August 12, 2007


Very quickly, because I've got one foot in The Land of Zombies and the other is anxious to cross the border, too.

Today was spent purging and cleaning. I'm still not done, but getting much closer. Tomorrow will, hopefully, see the last of the all day purging in the living room and dining room. I... should... be out of boxes by the time I fall into bed tomorrow night.

Wednesday is the last free movie of summer. Later that afternoon (as in, I think we have time to swing by home, pee, cool off for a few minutes, grab a bite to eat, and rush out the door again) K. has a doctor's appointment for her yearly well check-up/physical. If there's any cleaning/purging still to do, I'll jump on it after K.'s appointment.

Thursday morning I'm going to do a little bit of the grocery shopping. Maybe. A. is taking Thursday off so that he can go with us to the open house at school. It's at 1:30 in the afternoon and runs until 3pm with an hour of "extra" activities from 3 to 4. I expect we'll go shopping immediately afterward since we'll be getting supply lists from all of K.'s teachers.

Whatever shopping that did not get done on Thursday will have to be finished on Friday. If there's no shopping to be done (HA!! As if...) I'll focus my energy on whatever cleaning/purging is left to be done, including starting on my room.

I have no idea what plans we have for the weekend, beyond getting prepared for the first day of school (Monday). I can only hope that "relaxing" is somewhere in the mix.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.





Sunday
lunch: parmesan crusted tilapia, rice, peas
dinner: chinese take out

Monday
lunch: leftovers
dinner: hamburger casserole

Tuesday
lunch: boca chicken/beef patties, mac & cheese
dinner: foil-pack taco chicken, rice & buttered peas, salad

Wednesday
lunch: movie munchies / salad
dinner: pot roast, baked potatoes, lima beans, broccoli, salad

Thursday
lunch: sandwich, fruit
dinner: beef and noodles, green veggies, salad

Friday
lunch: pizza hoagies
dinner: pasta, salad

Saturday
lunch: ??
dinner: rice, beans, hoe cakes, salad


Sunday, August 12, 2007

The child can draw...

The kid scored a HUGE art pad while at her grandmother's today. We get home, all relaxing and doing our own thing, and I glance over to see K. drawing.

Of course, I had to grab my camera. I've been letting too many shots get away from me lately.



horse in progress



horse in progress



horse in progress




The horse is still in progress and just in the time I resized these pictures and uploaded them a mane, part of a saddle, and further details on the eye have been added. Also, it looks like she's working on the hair that hangs down above the eyes (the bangs? Do horses have bangs??).

What amazes me is that she's pulling this thing out of thin air. She's 10. She's seen horses at the zoo and in movies. She's got her uncle's talent and skill. And her father's.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Menu - week of August 5, 2007


Only two more weeks until school starts. I'm both saddened and overjoyed. Saddened because I love spending time with K, but overjoyed because I will be able to get back to my regular schedule and have a few hours each day to be by myself, and also write in peace.

K. is... eh. I'm not sure how she's feeling about it right now. We dropped a bundle of money (thanks, again, Mom!) on basic school clothes yesterday. I told her I would prefer that we not buy the entire store and completely re-outfit her until later in the school year, after she's had a chance to get accustomed to life in middle school and decide what sort of fashion trends, if any, she wants to follow. She agreed.

A. is... here. I took a few days off from the massive purging/cleaning I've been doing and he seems a little concerned that I won't get back to it.

And me. Last week was a roller-coaster week for me. I lost three days of hard cleaning because of people being in the apartment as well as the grocery shopping and corresponded with a published author who gave me some great advice on my writing and told me that I am "very, very close to publishable, if not already". And I get the impression that she wants to read the book that the excerpts she saw came from.

With the losing of purging/cleaning days last week and then the mini-vacation over the weekend, yeah, I haven't accomplished much in the past week. Except for the free movie this Wednesday and possibly a little shopping with K. either Wednesday or Friday, I don't have any plans (yet) for this week so it should be fairly easy to get back on track. Next week I know I'll be losing two days because K. has a doctor's appointment after the movie on Wednesday, then her school is having open house on Thursday, at 1:30 in the afternoon.

My original goal had been to have things settled by the first of August, but I got side-tracked and the new goal is August 20 when K. goes back to school.

Also, I think my knee is ready for me to start back with my Virtual Bike Tour Across America. It's been a month and while my knee still gets stiff and is a little achy, it's no longer swollen. I'll gradually start back with the stretching, then move on to the bike riding this week.

Finally, the menu for this week, because my family seems so much happier when I feed them. Everything is really simple this week because, well, I anticipate being distracted and alternately cranky and giddy. And, of course, the menu is subject to change at the drop of a half-formed whim or a good strong breeze, 'cause that's the way I just am sometimes.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.



Sunday
lunch: Burger King
dinner: Rice, beans, chicken

Monday
lunch: pizza hoagies or chicken salad
dinner: leftover buffet (time to clean out the refrigerator)
extra cooking: sauce

Tuesday
lunch: Chicken patties / tuna patties, leftovers, salad
dinner: meatloaf, baked potatoes, various veggies salad

Wednesday
lunch: movie munchies / salad
dinner: Parmesan encrusted tilapia, corn, peas, broccoli

Thursday
lunch: grilled cheese sandwiches
dinner: leftovers (or ??)

Friday
lunch: peanut butter sandwiches
dinner: pasta, salad

Saturday
lunch: ??
dinner: pot roast, mashed potatoes, lima beans, broccoli


Monday, July 30, 2007

Menu - week of July 29, 2007


Running pretty late with the menu this week, but I have one. It's very simple, primarily because I'll be crazy-busy this week and stopping to cook when I'm that busy isn't my idea of fun. Also, it's entirely too hot for me to spend time hovering about in the kitchen cooking, yet I still need to feed my piranhas or they get cranky.

A. is home again. K. is growing and needs clothes appropriate for school. I am busy, motivated, and hopeful. That about sums things up in our world.

As always, much gratitude for Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie for hosting Menu Plan Monday.




Sunday
lunch: pancakes
dinner: Wendy's

Monday
lunch: pizza hoagies (or chicken and tuna patties)
dinner: breaded cod, mac&cheese, peas, broccoli

Tuesday
lunch: movie munchies / salad
dinner: pasta
extra cooking: spaghetti/pizza sauce (x2)

Wednesday
lunch: movie munchies / salad
dinner: stir fried pork w/ramen noodles, various recaptured veggies

Thursday (grocery day)
lunch: ??
dinner: pot roast, baked potatoes, lima beans, broccoli

Friday (grocery day)
lunch: ??
dinner: breakfast (oatmeal, pancakes, grits, eggs, cereal, whatever)
extra cooking: boiled chicken, red beans

Saturday
lunch: chicken salad sandwiches
dinner: rice, beans, chicken, salad